Giving up to God

Giving up to God
14 September 2009

I have these moments when I know so sincerely inside of me that giving up to God is so worth it. I think the truth depth and art of Christianity is to surrender to our Living God and Father. To the world, this is ludicrous… to give up your life. But maybe it also stems from a place of fear. It would be the bravest thing, to full believe in God and thus trust Him with your life and surrender to Him. (And yet we have this warped sense that surrender is a bad thing, and that God is some mean deity that wants to destroy our lives. Ignorant people, please get that wrong idea out of your heads!)
I look at my life. I battle between me and God. I follow my own desires and lusts. I then realize they leave me stranded, confused and back at the beginning of this life circle I live. Round and round, I get dizzy from doing the same old things.
I want out, I need God. Occasionally I daydream, seeing how awesome it would be to just give up to God.
His way is, will and shall be perfect. One day, I will be less stubborn.