Making sense never made so much sense

16 October 2008

76 days and I will be in a new country, in the New Year starting a new chapter of my life.

I like the concept that each of us live in a Greater story. And we have the privilege of getting to know the Author in glimpses and measures.

I feel deep inside that I was made for more. But I’m not saying that my journey to discovering that call has meant nothing. Each page, each chapter written, each town I have lived in, I pray and hope I have made an impact on at least one person’s life.

The impact… for them to know that the Author exists… And we can know Him. And that His heart is good. The heart of the Great Author can be trusted. And during our life journey as we turn the pages from left to right; we discover we can trust and love Him.

So I write to reflect, to unfold a story. I am Darrel.

I am a collection of flaws, skills, vices and virtues. I am who He has made me to be.

As I sit here writing this, I think of my life journey…

Growing up in Toti, an insecure boy in this big world; moved to Ladysmith, a judgemental boy trying to discover what is right and wrong and doing my best to teach others and show them who Jesus the Author is. I succeeded and failed in many ways. Moving to East London; I came having learnt from my previous mistakes. I feel I have grabbed hold of the reality of God and I feel I have grown in leaps and bounds in knowing who I am and knowing who He is. I feel alive, truly alive. I am Darrel.

And I hope I have made an impact here too. Even if it’s just one person; it’s all been worth it!

I have echoing in my head often a title of a poem “the road less travelled”

That’s how I have often felt here in East London. I march to a different drum beat. People don’t get me. Occasionally someone has; and that has been awesome. (The Author wrote that in the script at the right time. He always does.)

As I turn the page, I pause and skim through the pages that I have been living through here in the past 3 years. I have met great people. And have made some profound friendships.

Alanis Morrisette wrote a new song recently that I feel describes me; I am a citizen of the planet.

I do have friends, but not necessarily in this town. They are all over the country and literally all over the world. The world is my stage… the world is in my story. So hence my desire to see the world; my desire to travel… It grows in me… everyday…

Spiritually I know I have grown a lot. But socially I feel I have died in some ways. So I know the next chapter will involve that development… I feel I hear the Author’s thoughts… it’s a privilege that He gives us a glimpse of His heart. Everything matters, everything is spiritual. (That’s a whole other thought to discuss sometime)

I am Darrel. I am ready for the next chapter.

But as I face this last chapter in East London; I will live it, I will write it well… because all good stories, need to end well. It has been declared in a Greater story.